The beginning

Figuring out what to say first is difficult.

I really dont know what motiviated me to start a blog, or if I will actually be able to keep up with it. I think the idea sparked from an article i read on on cnn.com " Your blog can be Group Therapy" in the living section which pointed me to a 35 year old woman's blog about her life being a new mom, newly married, and a husband newly diagnosed with termial panceatic cancer. And again, I dont know what drew me to the blog because I cannot relate on any level with this woman except my friend K's dad was recently diagnoised with the worse cancer or them all too, pancreatic cancer. Perhaps I am a sucker for heart wrenching tales, but i clicked on the webpage, read a few blogs and then jumped to the archives to read about what happened the final month of her husbads life. Granted, I was at work, I really wouldnt let the emotional monster take me over to look sad and teary because in my line of work no one gets worked up over budget spreadhsheets and performance reports. Well, on this particular day (and the following 3-4 days) I got sucked into the blog and actually read from the archived section a year and a half ago up to her most recent blog, I read EVERY entry! Sounds pathetic, but I got to thinking that if i had my own blog i could diary my life to re-read it some day and remember exactly what i was doing and thinking and feeling at this point in my life. I always used to journal to some extent; when i was very very little i had a little diary with a teddy bear on it that i wrote about my celebrity crushed, and my tea parties with my stuffed toys. I dont know how long I wrote, but the penmenship curbed significantly when I discovered it one night with the lock borken and ink spilled all over the front. Apparently my sister tried picking the lock with a pen... successfully for the lock, unsuccessfully for the pen. I also wrote in a journal throughout college a little bit, and I start a blog on MySpace but only made it though the first entry, forgot I had an account after a few months, and now I dont think i have logged in since last year. OK, one last reason I decided to "blog'" My cousons blog and it helps me keep in touch with them (by reading) and keeping engaged.

So, we'll see where this ends up. I dont like to check email or being on the internet after work because I spend 9+ hours a day on a computer at my job I like to lead a technology-free life afterwork. If our security nazi's block this page the answer will be evident. I have decided not to use this blog to catch up on my past, There's no sense in playing catch-up. If I tried to put all the background information in the first post, I'd have to write a novel, and I don't have a novel's worth of time right now. But I suppose that just in case someone stumbles across this blog, ill give some breif hightlights:
1. I am 24 (will be 25 this summer), I have a 3 year old little dog I named Odie that I love more than anything. He is my roommate and is probably the cutest dog you will ever see in your whole life. I lived and work in Cincinnati, but my family and my childhood are in Cleveland.
2. I got my masters degree in business in 2006 right after i finished college and moved directly to cincinnati to work to the US Department of Energy. The offices are right downtown and we have to big the biggest money pit in the entire country. The office is brand new (and completely unnecessary for tax $$), we employ about 12x more people than necessary( and a complete waste of tax $$), we are expanding (completely uneecessary for tax $$), and we sub out about 40% of our work ( a double waste of tax $$). Nonetheless, my job is somewhat satisfying, I am learning new things (even though all federal processees are F-ed up), and lets be honest, i get pad a lot so it keeps me realistic.
4. I am dating a perfect guy who adores me. He does everything for me and I know i cant find anyone better (even though i know i take him forgranted sometimes and I can be short tempered sometimes). I know i cant do any better than him...
5. I have the best circle of friends I can dream of, they are there for me all the time, we take awesome trips together, and even laugh at my pathetic jokes. I cant ask for better friends.
6. My family is awesome and hardworking. Their only downfall is they are far away from me.
7. right now my mind is heavily fixed on working out and getting in shape. Even though i drink coffee every morning and eat chocolate pretty much daily. My boyfriend, Matt, loves to run with me so he helps me stay motiviated. Especially since swim suite season is knocking on the door.

Of course, my life ist perfect, probably far from it. But i do consider myself a very fortunate and happy person over all. I think the entries forthcoming will be much less "historical" if you will... and ill just get right into what I am thinking about at the moment. Right now I am thinking how pissed I am at myself for eating that piece of chocolate this morning, i didnt NEED to eat it. My stomach hurts.

Well, before i close,in the spirit of Mothers Day that was just yesterday some humor from the past weekend:
The picture: My parents, sister, boyfriend and I sitting at my grandmas kitchen table eating pastries and reading/eating the jokes from a GIGANTIC bucket of laffy taffy:
-At the center of it all is mom demonstrating all her wierd double jointed tricks. In the background, the entire family trying to immitate her.
- my sister yells from my grandmas's bathroom that she overflowed the toilet and flooded the bathrooom. Dad comes running
- Mom" I thinking i hear water draining into the basement"
- family- Where are all grandmas mops?! Everyone running around
- 20 minutes later everything is clean-up, table is cleared, and sister is sleeping with her mouth open in the backseat on the way home.
Never a dull moment.

If aliens saw us what would they think? ha ha my boyfriend always says that when people do stupid things. Kind of like if alienss ever saw us at a Nascar Race: a crowd of people standing around watching some cars drive in a circle over and over... and over. Anyway, lots more to come.

-And what did the horse day when he tripped?
--> I'vc fallen and I cant giddy-up.

hahahaa!!