Ever since I became a mom never in my life have I ever been so thoughtful about my career. Meaning, never have I picked it apart and wondered what do I really want to do when i grow up? Do I want to be full time mommy or a full time working mother. And if I were to change my career to accommodate both, what would I be?
As i look at house after house in process to move up to the burbs, i envision raising my family in every home we walk into. I envision my life; waking up with my kids, making them breakfast, taking them for walks, to the parks, going to lessons for something at some location, sitting down for dinner every night. I envision school days, and school nights, kids over playing, i envision it all. I imagine what i would do in the free time, probably still get up early at 6am before everyone is awake and go for a run, pack my husbands lunch for the day, and get ready to take on the adventures the kids provide every single day. I have quite a few ideas of small business ideas of my own to do in my own time to supplement my income, ideas that even would involve my kids.
I day dream a lot about how different things would be if i didn't have the long days and long commute to work every morning. How much less stress i would feel about leaving my baby for so long every day,and knowing that my time is better spent investing in the minds of the future. Childhood is the most important times in a person's life. I deam of how much calmer i would feel in the evenings, not thinking about how little sleep i have to function at work and make it there safely. Or the thought that the work and preparation during the rat race after work to get everything cleaned and packed again for the next day and still manage to eat dinner and spend time together as a family. It feels very much like a rat race..... and I dream about how things could be.
And if i keep dreaming.... who knows what could happen.
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